Tuesday, October 04, 2005

Tale of Two Teachers

by Karl B.

[Note: The following article is a fascinating account from a person who was among the first to spend time with Andrew Cohen after Andrew's enlightenment experience with H.W.L. Poonja (known as Papa-ji or Poonja-ji), the guru who Andrew later disavowed. Soon after spending time with Andrew in Rishikesh, the author met Poonja-ji himself, and, like Andrew, was also declared enlightened and given permission to teach by Poonja. The story gives a valuable historical perspective on Andrew Cohen and raises interesting questions about his claims to uniqueness, as well as the very nature of enlightenment itself.]

I am sharing my story in hopes that my perspective could serve as a tool for seekers questioning their path and themselves. In the Summer of 1986, I was staying in Hardwar, India, awaiting the opportunity to meet H.W.L. Poonja Ji, whom I had learned about from Murray, a fellow traveler, at a high Himalayan shrine. There was a knock on my hotel room door. It was Murray and Andrew Cohen. They had news to share with me and wanted me to walk to the Ganga to talk. At the banks of the holy river, Andrew explained that he had just become enlightened by the grace of Poonja Ji, and that he was now beginning his teaching career. They planned to have satsangs in Rishikesh while they waited for Poonja to join them. Would I like to come along?

I was determined to meet Poonja (who was not commonly available in those days) so I went with them. About a dozen of us rented the rear compound of a temple in Laskman Jhula, and plunged into an orgy of Satsang, tea drinking, and Ganga dipping.

How can I capture the rare and fascinating dynamics of a man suddenly plunged into the role of spiritual teacher? He was trying to process and understand the sudden change he had undergone and he was attempting to enlighten others at the same time. It would be easy to focus on the negatives, it would be easy to focus on the positives, but it would be impossible to convey the totality of the situation without bias. With that disclaimer, I will simply attempt to share my perspectives that might benefit those who are concerned with the enigma of Andrew and the mysteries of "Enlightenment."

We stayed up regularly into the wee hours of the night, engaged in one-on-one dialogs and group discussions. (Eating kilos of mangos in the process) I thought Andrew was an unparalleled genius in using Socratic questioning to guide a person to a state where they would no longer have "a place to stand." He could force a person's mind into a self-canceling contradiction where thought was suspended and transcendent reality might have a moment to shine through. For me personally, I was very much benefited by Andrew's explanation of the simple fact that the highest Self was not "an experience" by virtue of the fact that our highest Self was the experiencing consciousness, the subject, not object, of all experience.

I spoke with Andrew a great deal about his developing perspectives on his sudden enlightenment. He freely admitted to being a miserable neurotic seeker prior to his breakthrough with Poonja Ji. Andrew was certain that through Poonja, he had reached full and final enlightenment, beyond which no further progress was relevant. He claimed to be a radically changed man.

Later I found it ironic that a "fully enlightened" man would write a gushy love book about his guru, and then manage to have an ugly falling out with him, over petty issues. In a vast universe with untold planets and beings, underpinned by a timeless reality, maybe we shouldn't use that word "final" so easily.

Andrew was also convinced that his students were becoming enlightened, or coming to the brink of enlightenment, at unprecedented speed. Folks were becoming "enlightened" and then falling from enlightenment at record pace. All this judged as true by a man claiming final and full enlightenment.

On one hand, Andrew's approach was refreshing. He was a Western teacher unburdened by "Indian Guru Conditioning" Satsang was free of the ritualistic culture of respect, reverence, even worship, commonly found around Gurus. You could treat Andrew as a friend. On the other hand, there was a feedback loop of praise and discovery that was plainly leading Andrew to suspect that he was such an exceptional teacher, that he just might be the greatest of all, perhaps the fountainhead of what could be a revolution of human consciousness in the planet.

The biggest turn-offs were his monumental arrogance and narcissism. I was no stranger to great teachers with flaws, so I reserved judgment. Still, one of the great questions seekers face is "What is the relationship between the personality of the teacher, their ability to impart wisdom, the perfection of the Absolute, and it's application to the relativities of human life in this world?" Let's get back to that later.

The pressure to submit to Andrew grew and grew, as Andrew's enlightening process seemed to depend on surrender to both "the Truth" and to Andrew. As students surrendered to Andrew, they looked to influence others to do the same.

While I clearly hadn't surrendered, I was open to satsang and deepening my spirituality, so I submitted to Andrew's questions and challenges. I had knowledge of Hindi, Sanskrit and various Indian philosophies. Andrew believed that I was attached to that knowledge and insisted that I throw my spiritual books in the Ganga. I felt that I had already come to terms with the limitations of paper knowledge, but eventually complied in order to prove my ambivalence. I felt neither freedom nor attachment in doing so, just a sense of waste. Does he ever force students to throw Andrew's books into that icy lake?

I had met many teachers over many years. I felt Andrew was not exceptional on any transcendental level, although he certainly had rare skill in dialectics. His heart seemed almost limited to marveling at his own greatness. Looking back at Andrew's teaching career, it seems to me that he's been determined to "stand out" and "be special" among all teachers. At first, when students appeared to become suddenly enlightened, Andrew had a claim to fame as a vehicle for instant transformation. When it turned out that those transformations were short-lived, I believe Andrew had to develop "cutting edge" enlightenment concepts so that he wouldn't just be "another guru." Certainly as a budding musician he would have fantasized about success with it's attendant fame and adulation. Now it would come through his very inner superiority. The neutral Light of the Spirit can lend a fake authenticity to an overblown ego with its power and radiance.

I hadn't been immune from this fault myself, as a tantric guru in Badrinath had earlier faulted me for wanting to be special. He said there was a danger of my inflicting "Karl-ism" on the world. He said that great men like Gandhi were simple, and accepted their mission with humility. I had to look within and admit that he was right.

Back to my story, I'd waited long enough to meet Poonja. A former Muktananda Swami and I somehow got permission to visit Poonja in Delhi. We left Andrew and crew in Rishikesh.

Within a few weeks of meeting him in Delhi, Poonja Ji had declared me enlightened as well, and given me permission to teach as he had given Andrew permission to teach. I believe I was the second appointed teacher of Poonja's. At this point, I don't believe Poonja had an idea of what exactly he expected from his emissaries. It was certainly not the case, as some have suggested, that Andrew's role was to attract followers to Poonja Ji in Lucknow. Poonja's health was in serious question in 1986. He had no ashram, no attendant disciples, no history of collecting followers, and there was no talk of changing that. He didn't even have a "teaching" in a conventional sense.

On the other hand, I don't think he expected Andrew to make up his own teachings and declare himself Lord. I had no discussions with Poonja regarding how teaching should proceed. I think Poonja Ji assumed that anyone grounded in Truth would be guided from within. Poonja always let his followers be free. He never demanded any money from me, nor gave me any orders. Rather he'd buy me a mango lassi and sit in communing silence with me if I didn't have any questions.

I had experienced a radical transformation 8 years earlier, where I clearly perceived the unity and perfection of all things as consciousness. You could say that I was reborn, but not without my own share of delusions and confusions. The "enlightenment" that I later experienced with Poonja Ji was no such "big bang." It was an ineffable shift that opened a clear sense of my own eternal nature as consciousness. I had always been a happy and peaceful person; my immersion in my own presence had been continuous in my mental background since my initial awakening. I'd be tempted to say that Poonja simply gave me proper understanding of my Self, but I'm afraid this would miss a transcendental aspect of his transmission that defies words and understanding.

This "enlightenment" transmission of Poonja Ji has been controversial since other paths have views of enlightenment that are much more extreme in terms of mystical knowledge and power. I consider "enlightenment" to be a term that is not only misunderstood, but misleading, and somewhat counter-productive. Our consciousness is continually being refined through experience and yet it expands in quantum leaps throughout our evolution. Every one of those quantum leaps seems like "enlightenment." Humans are pretty blind and contracted. A glimmer of divine light seems like a thousand suns.

The reason I relate the story above is for the sake of those who would make the "enlightened" man's behavior and pronouncements infallible and sacrosanct. I was, and am, more than capable of mistakes of all sorts, of being swayed by lust and greed, and plenty of other weaknesses and vices. I am totally confident that Andrew is in the same boat, only with his own individual set of faults and vices. Apologists will claim that I'm merely projecting my own imperfection on Andrew. Maybe so. Yes, our innermost essence is totally transcendent of these human foibles, but it isn't the one cashing the checks either.

Here is an unfortunate nexus of spiritual law and human weakness: The spiritual law is "Ask and it shall be given, seek and you will find." If somebody comes to a teacher, and asks from sincerity of her heart, the teacher may act as a conduit for universal consciousness to guide that person. The more faith that the questioner has in the teacher, the more likely they are to draw out an inspired answer, and the more likely they will be to accept and enact the teacher's advice. Call it evolutionary tension if you like.

The result of this phenomena is that Andrew's greatest faults are some of his greatest strengths. He went from Dog to God, so his realization seems supreme to him. He's supremely confident and arrogant so it's easy for him to demand total agreement and submission. By putting himself up on the highest pedestal, he has the power to effect maximum change in a student who believes in him.

Unfortunately, we are all silly humans with faults. Our ego is scum floating on the ocean of truth and it gets slimy over anything that emerges from that ocean. It's easy to see how a man, observing "miracles" happening in his presence, being showered with love, respect, and obedience from everyone around him, could believe that his scum was as pure as the ocean below.

When I returned to the United States, I determined that if I were to serve the Truth with integrity, I wouldn't depend on the "Andrew method" of proclaiming myself be the Most High and expecting folks to fall in line. I would let the Spirit guide my destiny. It turned out that I quickly fell in love, fell into drama, and fell into more attachment than I had suffered in my "pre-enlightenment" phase. I moved through those challenges but am not fooled that my human side is obliterated or beyond influence. I'm happy to suspect that I've had a positive influence on my friends and community nonetheless, without placing myself in an unnatural position of power and authority in relation to them.

After exchanging numerous letters with Poonja Ji and meeting him in New York, I continued to have questions regarding the guru's personality versus his enlightenment. While Poonja preached non-judgment and non-comparison, he seemed to indulge in his share. I wrote him a letter asking for an explanation but didn't hear from him. Poonja was always setting his students free, not creating a dependency, so I left our connection on the inner level rather than external, and went on with life.

In 1996, it struck me that Poonja Ji had been very generous with his time and love with me. He had actually cried when he believed I was enlightened. He would also die someday. I wanted to be sure that there was no gulf between us. I had also heard about the feud between Poonja and Andrew and hoped that perhaps I could help mend fences. I was sure that Andrew, despite his faults, meant well, and I knew the same about Poonja. Why should high beings so intimately connected be so estranged? If the Gurus were at war, what hope do nations have?

I wanted to clear waters and test his reaction to Andrew. I wrote Poonja Ji a letter. Here is an important except:
"I believe it has been at least seven years since I have seen or written you. Even though I have not felt separate from you during all that time, I hope you still remember this wayward Son of yours and forgive me for not fulfilling my potential as a teacher. I understand that Andrew, who did accept the teaching role with both hands, has become such a demigod that he can no longer love his good Father the way he used to. When I see that, I feel glad that I judged myself as not yet fit for that work, as I would never want to fall short in such a critical role. I am not in a position to judge, so I wish love and wisdom for all, and hope Peace and Understanding ultimately prevail."

Poonja Ji replied on 7-18-96. 99 percent of its essence can be gleaned from the following excerpt:

"..the student who abuses his teacher goes to the 7th Hell, where one is thrown into fire, and again revives, and again is thrown into the fire, this will continue for a million years in this Hell. Later he will be born into the pigs family." [And on and on! ] "You are a most lucky person to have saved from living with such rascals. If you don't have enough money, stay where you are Divine will Bless you."
I'm afraid my friends, that we live in a dark world where the Spirit doesn't fully rectify the personality of the fortunate ones who realize transcendent truth. Seek the truth, and follow a path with a heart, but don't expect idealized perfection where it can't exist. Attempts to force "Heaven on Earth" through moralism and ideology fail to recognize that it is the very nature of life on this planet to grow by struggling though our ignorance. If this planet were to evolve beyond it's darkness, it would be a beautiful thing, but another planet would have to come into being to fulfill that niche. It's a greater mystery than anyone can explain in human terms, but everything at each moment has a perfect place in the totality. Change yourself, and your world automatically changes. If Andrew sees the world as deficient, it is his own deficiency that he witnesses.

Isn't it perfect that Andrew, having rejected and abused his teacher, (who, even though imperfect, gave him so much) is now accusing his own students of betraying him? Perfect that the king of narcissism finds it everywhere around him?

Poonja was a great teacher. He has my eternal love and respect. Andrew is a powerful man who has had direct knowledge and potent inspiration. However, this world is a like a big drunk party. You might learn to see through your state of intoxication and call it enlightenment, but you're still in danger of crashing your car if you drive too fast.

Andrew's treatment of his students is counter-evolutionary. A student with inculcated self-hatred is more egoic than one who loves himself. Every bit of coercion, psychic violence and inner loathing adds to the pot of darkness reflected in our worldly situation. Love is the healing balm for our society. In the face of love, we can afford to "drop our egos."

I certainly hope Andrew can taste some of his own medicine because he has much potential as a leader. I think every spiritual teacher should take a month out of every year to travel alone and incognito. He should interact with many people in many situations where a guru has no standing, no identity and no authority. That would be an excellent reality check and retreat.

It's important to note that realization of the Self does not necessarily convey realization of the complete spectrum of relative truth and manifest reality. Andrew hasn't saved the world. The world will be saved or lost as a reflection of the totality and either result will be a perfect outcome in the face of Eternal Consciousness.

Still, I'm confident that our journey in refining and awakening consciousness is something beautiful and sacred. Experience the poetry of life in love and beauty. Learn from teachers, but know that the only realization you can have is from within. Take a path with a heart, and open to eternity.

With great love
Karl B (peacebaba@excite.com)


Anonymous Anonymous said...

Hey, great article, and thanks for opening back up for anonymous comments.

Saturday, 22 October, 2005  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

Are not all so called spiritual teachers who proclaim themselves enlightened a hindrance to truth rather than an aid? They encourage the notion that there is something outside of oneness to be found.

Wednesday, 02 November, 2005  
Blogger yogi11000 said...

Why do we need enlightenment Sir?

Tuesday, 06 April, 2010  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

Yes, great article; thank you so much for coming from a really open humble place. I was with Adi-Da for many years and I know all about the abuse. I was abused on several occasions. I have read all the angry reports of ex-daists. However, I have to say in my own case that this pushed me to a place where I had to trust my own love, my own freedom and my own intuition of truth. I also saw Andrew on a number of occasions and found the same cultic nonsense going on by him and around him. He tried a number on me, but once you've been through that game if you come out sane and not destroyed or angry, you'll never get fooled again. Yes, be your own reality...you are anyway! Be Happy! Life is such a great gift. Consciousness is reality. etc. etc. No-one to be enlightened. Just and always only this! Respect!

Friday, 06 August, 2010  

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